Love: A Silent Movie

Too late now we lost it, built lakes out of faucets
Gave shape to our fears so they affected our causes/
Argue over all but never for fight for each other
So now our bed is just a place to lay our heads and recover/
And would love a peaceful moment but avoid em at points
cus silence suggests we’re almost near our boiling point/
now the sex is all that’s left, and though it still gratifies
without the love attached we never feel satisfied/
rely purely on the physical feeling
while I focus on the bed and you stare at the ceiling/
left with my thoughts as you soak in the bath tub
asleep when you return so nothing gets patched up/
reluctantly backs touch,
when not under covers wrapped up
why we so wrapped up in our past, intent on making it last, like we ain’t had nuff/
for the rush that it adds, but it outlasts us/

A storm to call

need constant rotation, i like conversation but mostly i keep to self i said
can't muster the fight, so i'll just be polite and take my reply to the grave instead/
a petrified forest with fruit ripe to pick if you could decipher through all of the shit
i tried with a smile, tries met with denial and came back speakin bout callin it quits/
eyes of the storm, i look into warm and hope to receive the same back in embrace
the tornado i hugged, but it gave me a shrug and threw me and hope right back into our place/
face it, her stare, can't ignore... medusa's hair my fav-o-rite place to explore
chasin the danger the place of a stranger is changed to a daily array of amor/
if war is the answer i'll dance around bullets, then takin the lead as she's followin suit
no matter the chance of disaster i'm after her worst and still be callin it cute/
stab if you have to i'll languish in pain, in love with the fact you delivered the change
if nothing is different, i'll pluck through the visions and hopefully grab the right one in exchange/

Sally's Got A One Track Mind

Sally got a one track mind…again another party attended
If you didn’t go, there were others there to show her a good time
She’s hardly offended

Sally be at all the right places
Never waits in line with how familiar her face is
Free drinks at the bar she could already taste it
Never mind the fact that she’s already wasted

Sally has no time for contemplation
Dances by the speakers just to feel the vibrations
Hasn’t got a boyfriend doesn’t need the frustration
Men slow her down and she ain’t got the patience


Sally got a one track mind…401K’s stocks & bonds
If it’s not about business don’t ask for the digits
Never ‘round to kick it since she’s always on the job

Sally sees the world as her office space
No schedule per say but it’s often late
When it’s not power lunches just a box of grapes
No breaks; she hates to make her bosses wait

Shies from office parties… thinks it’s all a waste
Takes charge of every task that gets tossed her way
Hopes to make junior partner in the honest way
Says hard work and diligence is all it takes



Sally got a one track mind…designer baby clothes and bassinets
Now to find a man that fits accordingly with plans
And he can take her hand in marriage should he pass the test

Sally found a man she could deal with
His own law practice. A Harvard grad
Drives a new model Benz keeps with all the latest fads
and both agree they could play the role of mom and dad/

Sally doesn’t want to take maternity leave
Feels the senior partners pressure her to hurry and leave
She’s worried and there’s stress that only working relieves
Doesn’t yet feel a connection between her and her seed

Sally got a one track mind…the weight of postpartum depression
Been waiting for a difference in the way she thinks
But hasn’t changed since the start of conception/

Chromosome Double X (September 1999)

wrote this for my first girlfriend at 16yrs old...this was how i told her i wanted her to be my girlfriend hahaha...young love


Well let me tell the story bout this pain in my chest
and why I say fuck the sex with chromosome double X/
trouble vests in love life that's why i hate the shit
got no pay to flip, therefore there's no relationship/
plus the state of it dissolves, end up problem solved
emotions spoken stalled so I admit it's all my fault/
the only for one for me is a dream that's eye ballin me
she never spoke a word so i guess her bodies callin me/
when we meet, my secret emotions need expression
fear of her rejection makes it harder for progression/
leads to my depression and she gives me speech impediment
when she's around i speak in tongues knowin’ she's been heaven sent/
wishin for a second lent when i can speak openly
fantasies of us is all that i can ever hope to see/
but hopefully she'll go to me and not try to pass me
most of the time with women thoughts of Moe be comin lastly/
her style differs vastly, divine in composition
so many blinded by her beauty i'm barely competition/
and there's lots i'm missin, pretty boy looks and a Rolex
but baby if you got a man, how bout tryin Moe next?/
I don't be gettin swoll checks and can't promise security
but i gotta let this out cus princess the pain is burnin me/
I'm not in a hurry see, take time with the process
thoughts of hot sex, I'm more or less obsessed/
you might think i lost sense but honey we was made to be
supposed to be a player now my potnas is ashamed of me/
but i ain't afraid to see the truth, I guess I love her
tell her how I feel then I hear take a number/
yeah i guess it's just another, fantasy, hopelessness
but i'll never have a love that could come close to this/
maybe i can hold you miss, lovin your complexion
Hispanic/African mix , nothin but perfection/
finally expressed it, no longer have to hold it in
look past the fact- i was a mack- and at that been exposed to sin/
i hope to win attention from this goddess in my presence
no dirty ideas, thoughts are strictly on her essence/
compared i'm just a peasant but my love for her is prominent
crazy to think i had a chance, now i gotta move on with it/
picture me sprung, yeah I must of lost my common sense
can't let you pass, so if I lose it's worth the consequence/

experience soulgasms while my thought explores your entity
your more then a friend of me, met and you crossed my destiny/
represent my identity, I did some soul searchin'
the experience of our fates, taped behind close curtains/

taped behind close curtains, premarital engagements
anything that you need, love will make the arrangements/
some say it's detainment, with you i've been emancipated
my north star, my guide, my sun and moon reincarnated/

Have Not

written October 29th, 2000

I think to speak some illicit illustrations
send explicit invitations with descriptive implications
a difference it's been facing with an emphasis on chasing
this nation providing different faces of duration/
no time to relax pause I rhyme and extract awes
lines interact Gods divine design to attract applause
but that’s cause of anarchy plant are key of distress
level of hate is higher then the amount of THC in my chest/
you see I lead and attest the revolution,cheated the test of evolution
steep in the stress of destitution, leading the rest to execution/
even the best seek retribution, death diffusing my head
searching for serenity but found confusion instead/
“intrusion” it read. disrespect to the masses
question passes. as is I guess I slept through most the classes/
I took. life shook with a deadly force
trauma plagued I gave my heart now motherfucker send me yours/
plenty more there was pressure at first sight relaxed with ease
I was riding on a dream outside my brains capacities/
I got a head like hole allow my mind to be clouded
life of a kid who lost a piece with every rhyme that he shouted/
I search for peace haven't found it heaven’s history
share my speech with god CRUCIFY this into me/
a sin to be myself individuality left scars
a cynical synopsis but I await the change so let's start/
a new plan of pinnacle process constantly crippled by nonsense
absent minded but conscious my conscience is dying a long tense/
moment of absolution and fear for the fact it feels so good
keep my head in the office but my heart content right in the hood/
right is it good, wrong is it bad? it's sad my dads missed
most of our lives we live in fear of the wrong reaction/
high fidelity my inner walls are sound proof
time to meditate and celebrate new found youth/
surround truth with facade to keep them on their toes
born with the truth I guess for most it's just to hard to know/
I sparsely go where all men have boldly died
the rope we tied anticipating a lonely ride/
only time will tell smashing clocks to keep my secret
wash myself in vanity sanity played delinquent/
but still I reap in benefits of doubt sarcasm uneasiness
never won anything and there's nothing left for me to miss/
I've treated rap like an accusation always on the defensive side
deep puddle of waste buckling up for this relentless ride/
soul searching mind traveling dabbling feet in the water
unhooked the cross around my neck -success- ya needed no longer/
I've defeated my ponder like look on life
I crooked it twice for an individual book to write
minimal look-a-likes but maybe I'm just not looking right
I took the plight but admit i was just too shook to fight/
look it's white as the kids laugh and point at my skin
so at twelve said hell pass the joint and pass the gin/
I'm passive in my ways leading to advantages taken
life would be shit if it wasn't for my steady cannabis grazing/
craving for a hit blazing off the fruit of the land
true to the plan kill a cop that tries uprooting my plant/
truth is in fact a block between the thoughts of right and left
for all eternity I'll be sure to beat the fight with death/
leak the slightest breath and leave this world a have not
cus I ain't had shit since I had pops/

happy birthday

Mayhem by manifesto

written june of 2001((18 yrs old)

i never see the life the same it's a game and some are rollin with loaded dice

while mine are blank missin numbers haunted by stubborn poltergeist/

what's my name talkin to deaf hookers like they won't even bother to ask

drinkin a flask of ever clear hopin to forget my father passed/

on to the task of cloud watchin readin like comics in the sky

honesty fills the cracks in life and so the surface is covered in lies/

takin a drink from the puddle of youth but it's truthfully tastin' bitter

so i spit it into a frozen body and bring heat to eternal winter/

knockin on wood got me splinters mother nature won't let her

body be destoryed by poison but she's cluttered with go getters/

i hold a letter of governemnt pardon for the arson i lit underneath

slitherin snakes come out their wholes makin it harder for me/

step in peace but my next release of oxygen might be the last

passin water and brim stone unscathed but my scales reach for the past/

grab the latch open up a chapter that was locked in a gate

fate pressed immediate answers but i was robbed of a date/

with destiny so what's left for me but ashes and dust

this ain't a fact or prethought conception just caught me happen to bust/

on a tour bus from hades maybe i should just jump out

or press the breaks and watch my brains hit the glass and dump out/

philosiphize with excons that get stepped on by frank sinatras daughter

runnin out of time so i'm scratchin with the speed of blades on helicopters/

never stop the monsta life's a ying yang without balance there's no peace

we got good and bad so there's no need for police that hold heat/

with foul intentions riot gear used for the excuse of crowd prevention

thinkin' aloud I mention desperation brings astound inventions/

dribble around these clouds forgettin the ground and all that's over there

livin the life i live will be givin a chance for kids with no despair/

when hair drops and bodies shrink skin grows to heaps of wrinkled flesh to rot

soul expands balloon effect bigger it gets the closer it gets to pop/

we're not the average characters we care to categorize as

if you would just dare to think outiside the lines you'd see a divine path/

sometime the mind lacks the will and motivation takes a turn to idle

stifled by my aspirations built up anger burnin bibles/

i used to yell out curses... but as of recent life's a trampoline

ups and downs so close togther broken weather ample dreams/

trampled see that's just another thing that keeps on gettin me

so i utilize telepathy through the weed that's sittin next to me/

as the light burns i take a slight turn and rub my side burns

while ponderin another place where I'm never thinkin life burns/