Chromosome Double X (September 1999)

wrote this for my first girlfriend at 16yrs old...this was how i told her i wanted her to be my girlfriend hahaha...young love


Well let me tell the story bout this pain in my chest
and why I say fuck the sex with chromosome double X/
trouble vests in love life that's why i hate the shit
got no pay to flip, therefore there's no relationship/
plus the state of it dissolves, end up problem solved
emotions spoken stalled so I admit it's all my fault/
the only for one for me is a dream that's eye ballin me
she never spoke a word so i guess her bodies callin me/
when we meet, my secret emotions need expression
fear of her rejection makes it harder for progression/
leads to my depression and she gives me speech impediment
when she's around i speak in tongues knowin’ she's been heaven sent/
wishin for a second lent when i can speak openly
fantasies of us is all that i can ever hope to see/
but hopefully she'll go to me and not try to pass me
most of the time with women thoughts of Moe be comin lastly/
her style differs vastly, divine in composition
so many blinded by her beauty i'm barely competition/
and there's lots i'm missin, pretty boy looks and a Rolex
but baby if you got a man, how bout tryin Moe next?/
I don't be gettin swoll checks and can't promise security
but i gotta let this out cus princess the pain is burnin me/
I'm not in a hurry see, take time with the process
thoughts of hot sex, I'm more or less obsessed/
you might think i lost sense but honey we was made to be
supposed to be a player now my potnas is ashamed of me/
but i ain't afraid to see the truth, I guess I love her
tell her how I feel then I hear take a number/
yeah i guess it's just another, fantasy, hopelessness
but i'll never have a love that could come close to this/
maybe i can hold you miss, lovin your complexion
Hispanic/African mix , nothin but perfection/
finally expressed it, no longer have to hold it in
look past the fact- i was a mack- and at that been exposed to sin/
i hope to win attention from this goddess in my presence
no dirty ideas, thoughts are strictly on her essence/
compared i'm just a peasant but my love for her is prominent
crazy to think i had a chance, now i gotta move on with it/
picture me sprung, yeah I must of lost my common sense
can't let you pass, so if I lose it's worth the consequence/

experience soulgasms while my thought explores your entity
your more then a friend of me, met and you crossed my destiny/
represent my identity, I did some soul searchin'
the experience of our fates, taped behind close curtains/

taped behind close curtains, premarital engagements
anything that you need, love will make the arrangements/
some say it's detainment, with you i've been emancipated
my north star, my guide, my sun and moon reincarnated/